I am writing this with deep gratitude for your overwhelming generosity, love, support, prayers, and kindness over the last few weeks. It gives me strength and provides healing on so many levels.
I’d like to share a bit more about my experience and holding on to inner peace.
The drunk driver who crashed into my home caused destruction of my home, my belongings and a complete upheaval of my life.
However, there is one thing he can’t destroy. My peace.
Peace is my true essence. It is who I am.
Yes, this traumatic and bizarre event has caused parts of me (not all of me) to feel scared, unsettled and not safe. Of course. This makes complete sense. I was startled awake in the middle of the night to find a car in my living room, only feet from where I was sleeping.
The beautiful thing is - I am healing.
I am being present with my experience and receiving so much support from talented practitioners who are helping me to heal my body, mind and soul, and healing through the love and support of my incredible family, friends and community.
Yesterday I went to my friend Carrie Pluck's farm where she does equine assisted learning. I spent time with her horse named Bebe. It was incredible.
As I was grooming Bebe, I talked to her about what has happened to me. She listened unconditionally. It was so peaceful and deeply healing. There were many more gifts and I'm still processing it.
It would be easy for me to have negativity or resentment towards the drunk driver but if I’m resentful, it’s like I’m letting him live rent free in my head. I would be giving away my power and that’s not going to happen.
This doesn’t mean I haven’t had anger, sadness or frustration over the past few weeks. The key for me is that I’ve allowed myself to feel the anger and as the anger moves, what is emerging is a depth of strength that I haven’t felt before.
This strength is who I am, and I am very in touch with it as I am writing this.
Maybe you’re going through something challenging right now. Maybe someone has caused you pain or suffering or has disappointed you.
We can’t control what other people do or don’t do. Say or don’t say. The only thing we can control is how we wish to respond.
No one can take our peace away - unless we let them.
I talk about this all the time in my classes and workshops, and now I have been presented with the biggest opportunity in my life to put it into action. And I am.
This driver violated my life on so many levels. But I am not a victim.
I get to choose how I respond, and I am choosing to love myself more than ever and to receive love more than I ever have in my life.
A spiritual teacher that has impacted me deeply is Almaas,
“Whatever is happening at this moment, that is your life. The future is not your life; it never arrives. What is actually here is always only this moment.”
If we desire peace, what is required is to be present in our life. To feel what we are feeling rather than avoiding, running away, blaming, judging, or trying to change or fix something.
It’s not always easy or pleasant but it is doable. We have everything within us to get through our deepest challenges.
I call it the path of the spiritual warrior. And for me - it’s the only way.
With love and gratitude,
Diane