I am grateful for the space I have had these past few weeks, to be and to feel. It has been a gift of growth to be the observer of what comes up.
I am seeing how parts of myself are coming out of hiding to be seen, felt and heard.
Trauma, and the ability to heal from it, is truly an amazing feat. As I have shared with you, six months ago I had a traumatic experience where a car crashed into my living room only a few feet from where I was sleeping. When this happened, I devoted all of my attention to healing. And as a result, it was a positive life-changing experience.
Now, during this pandemic, I am witnessing something very interesting.
On a conscious level I’m not afraid or worried about the future. I feel safe, grateful, and at peace.
Yet, on the subconscious level (my body) there is a part of me that doesn’t always feel safe. It is showing up as tension in my jaw and in my body.
Perhaps this is from my most recent trauma. I don’t know.
What I do know is, I am grateful for my mindfulness practice. I am moving through this with awareness, curiousity and compassion.
I regularly use EFT (Tapping) which is an effective technique to calm the amygdala in the brain (the fight or flight response) and provide healing to the part that feels unsafe. After I do EFT, I am then able to meditate and be present with more ease.
This is creating space for more presence to reveal itself. I am deeply grateful.
It is so important to allow ourselves to feel what we are feeling and to allow others to feel what they are feeling.
We need to have a compassionate heart for ourselves and others now more than ever.
We all have various life experiences and realities that affect our perception, our response and our choices. And the reality is some people have more choices right now than others.
Some people are seeing through a lens of positivity while others because of past or present experiences see through the lens of fear.
We must trust that in any given moment each person is doing the best they can.
When we are triggered, are reactive, have anxiety, heavy emotions, it often has just as much to do with a past experience as it does the present. Whether we have a conscious memory or not, our body has an in-depth filing system and holds memory of everything we have experienced in our life.
A pandemic like this can bring up old files like ‘I am not safe’.
When we face our discomfort with compassion, we are being a parent to our Inner Child and to the part that feels unsafe.
Facing this discomfort with compassion creates fertile soil for healing, growth, deep transformation and freedom.
The spiritual journey is not about being comfortable. It is about honouring our truth.
When we honour the truth of our experience, we are inviting a deeper connection to who we are.
The opportunity for truth is there in each and every moment of our existence. Sometimes waiting patiently, sometimes showing up abruptly.
It is up to us if we choose to accept the invitation and explore the space between.
With love,
Diane