We are always in the process of change, whether it’s subtle or not so subtle, change is constantly occurring.

Last week I had a session with my mentor. A few days prior, I happened to find notes from a past session we had in November 2020 (an interesting synchronicity I’d say).

My mentor had written down what I said so I could review it and now seven months later, as I reread my notes, I was amazed at how much my perception of myself, and my spiritual path has changed.

It was both enlightening and reaffirming.

What interested me the most was - I haven’t been focused on changing.

My practice is not about trying to fix an emotion, thought, feeling, ego structure.

My practice is to be present with whatever arises from moment to moment - to hold space, to inquire with curiousity, and to be with what is - with compassion

And reading my notes showed me the power and transformation that has occurred with ‘non-doing’.

This wasn’t always the way. In the past, I had a very different approach. For many years I was on a quest to fix myself, to make sure I wouldn’t feel that feeling or think that thought, I wanted people to love and accept me, to feel worthy, and I had the belief that when these things we were fixed I would have peace.

Now I know that the ego was controlling the show and keeping me stuck by letting me believe I needed to be this or that. If I had continued down that path it would be never-ending.

There’s no judgement for approaching it that way, it’s part of my story and has led me to where I am today. I wouldn’t change it for the world.

Sometimes we want to change so others will like us more, we believe if we change, we’ll be more worthy of love.

The truth is we are worthy of love because of the mere fact we exist. We are the miracle, right here and now.

We don’t need to fix that issue, lose weight, have more money, be like that.

What if we don’t wait any longer to love and accept ourselves?

What if instead, we cut ourselves some slack and said to ourselves. “I’m doing my best and that is enough.”

When we find acceptance with each meditation, with each thought or emotion, when we have the willingness to be present with whatever arises, healing happens. Parts of ourselves that were separate are now integrated - we return home to Self and that is a beautiful thing.

May we practice being with what is.

With love,

Diane