It is never too late; we are never too old to awaken to more of who we are.
On February 29th, I celebrated 56 years on this planet. That makes me 14 years old in leap years! And as I write this, I am going through a huge transformation.
In this transformation there has been a lot of discomfort and, so many miracles. Some of which I would like to share with you.
As most of you know, in October a car crashed into my living room while I was sleeping, and since then I have been living with my sister and brother-in-law. Feeling safe and supported has been instrumental in my healing process.
Recently, they went away for 10 days, and this was the first time I have been alone sleeping at night since the accident. The Universe was giving me an opportunity to jump over another hurdle. I accepted.
I felt like I was on a 10-day retreat. Like all retreats I have been on, there were highs and lows. It was challenging and at the same time exactly what I needed.
For the first four nights I felt nervous when I was in bed knowing I was alone. It wasn’t a 10 out of 10 kind of nervous because I have been working on this with the support of others, but it was still very uncomfortable.
Each night while I was in bed, I did EFT (Tapping) and it worked. By day five, I was no longer nervous. I felt safe and calm. This was a huge triumph.
Spiritual growth is not comfortable. It requires being present to what is. Feeling. Looking inward at our shadow side rather than stuffing things down.
As emotions have come to the surface, I am choosing to be present. I don’t always like it! But practicing self-compassion has allowed me to honour all parts of myself and my emotions. This feels like a big part of my ‘assignment’.
And as a result, there have been continuous moments of awakening.
I call this grace.
As the walls of my house have fallen, so are the walls of old beliefs and behaviours of who I am and how I should be.
I am now building a new foundation and it is mightier and stronger than before. It is authentic because I am present. I am taking the lead in the rebuilding process.
It is the path of a warrior. The one who is willing to sit in the unknown. Feeling stripped of everything, and then reawaken to the truth at a much deeper level.
I am a spiritual warrior thru and thru.
If we try and suck it up and move on, it will continue to show up at some other point and time.
For me it’s not about getting over anything.
There is no timeline for my healing. I am not in control of when the healing is complete, but I do have the power to be present and trust in myself and the Universe. And in those moments, if I lack trust, that’s okay too.
Wherever we go there we are.
We have all experienced challenges at different points in our life. Maybe you find yourself there now.
What I am choosing now is to be present and look even deeper into my soul. I am grateful for this unyielding passion.
As I enter a new year, I have shed many old layers. I am still in the process of ‘rebuilding my new foundation’. I know in my heart of hearts that incredible things are on the horizon and the inner work and rebuilding I am doing now is preparing me for this next chapter - to be of service, share, inspire, thrive and celebrate.
Thank you for joining me on this adventure! Cheers to the continued adventure of life.
Diane