What I love about my experience of consciousness is that it feels so organic; naturally changing and shifting, beautifully alive.
Right now, I am aware of these many shifts within myself - how I perceive myself and the world. Some subtle and some not so subtle.
I taught a group course last week for the first time since October. It was so great to reconnect in a group setting and to acknowledge how much I myself, and my life, have changed since then.
When I was sharing “All we have is this moment” it was a beautiful, clean, clear, focused statement and it was coming through me, not from me. I have said this statement many times, and this time was different. It was at a much deeper level than ever before.
It is truth.
My willingness to be real, humble, vulnerable, feel, and share is the catalyst for my continued growth. The more I am willing to experience each moment, the greater the transformation.
These shifts of consciousness are monumental for me and it feels important to share them with you. To understand, there is no mastering mindfulness. Our practice and experience are one that will continue to shift, change and transform as life goes along.
Last week I shared how I had experienced a lot of grief and emotion and that I was present with it. I didn’t label it as bad. It wasn’t always easy. But I was meant to experience it and now it has passed. As I am writing this, I feel lighter and more open. I am observing this experience knowing, this too shall pass. Everything is impermanent.
I’m not in control of consciousness. I have no idea what my next emotion or thought is going to be from one moment to the next.
I can control how I respond. I can choose to Be.
And when I choose to Be, the walls of the ego continue to fall away, there is no resistance to hold it together. And what is left is what has always been there - our true essence.
Consciousness is ever-changing. Sometimes we may feel in a more expanded state of consciousness. Sometimes we may feel more contracted like nothing is happening or we have taken a step backwards, we haven’t.
Trying to control my experience does not interest me anymore. Knowing it is all part of the ever-changing landscape, there is no right or wrong, good or bad.
Consciousness fees like an ocean when you go explore deeper levels of life, of stillness and essence. Sometimes it is colorful and sometimes it is dark. It is all part of the larger whole.
If it is all part of the whole, perhaps this means we can stop searching for something else other than what we are experiencing in this moment.
We are free when we realize, all we have is this moment.
We have been given an opportunity to explore consciousness in this lifetime. We have been given this life to explore the depth of who we are. This is grace. How incredible.
With much love,
Diane